Happiness hit her like a train on a track. Coming towards her stuck still no turning back

so i paused on blogging. im back. with NEWS!   i got a job. and an apt. and i'm moving to Boston on Jan 15. crazyyy soon.
i'm really excited.  and nervous.  and will miss my friends in NY
yes. this is the right next step, but scary for sure.

tonight chrissy and i got pedicures, made dinner, and had wine on the couch. it was great.
and she went home. and i replayed all we talked about. my move, our friends, our life goals from 2007, our new 5 year life plans, etc.  amazing.  

love. love. love.   
loveburst of a night.

explanations

i always feel the need to explain myself. im going to need to get over that

i want what i want and im moving the right direction. 
there's a fine line between moving forward and moving away.

fact: finding a job takes time
hope: it happens soon
fact: i love new york
hope: i visit often
fact: boston will be lonely at the beginning.
hope: beginning wont last long
fact: my friends are the best
hope: they visit often

kind of.

21 days!

3 weeks left!  4 classes. sooo close.

:)

stars.

hopeful isnt about the specifics, its about believing in something even if its not realistic. 

 its about possibilities 

"People often say that motivation doesn’t last. Well, neither does bathing - that’s why we recommend it daily."

— ~ Zig Ziglar

Dec 8.

countdown begins! 
Dec 8 -  I finish my MBA. 
(we'll ignore that i dont technically graduate untill Feb)
in 29 days, i'll never have to do homework again. no more case studies, group projects, class, or participation points.
CAN NOT WAIT!

now if only i could muster up the motivation to get the work done.

why bother

someone i know mentioned today how she knows all these people blog with absolutely no purpose. so why bother, its stupid. 
i have no idea.   i dont blog for you.    i blog because somehow it feels free-ing to put my thoughts out there. (kind of like my diary in high school, which is hysterical,  I'll add) and honestly, i only let certain people see it.  of course, its public, but im too smart to let everyyyone read it.

new job. 1.2.3 go.
job searching is tiring. im too honest to pretend that i still love my job.    lets be serious, i dont hide things well. i'm a terrible liar and my face gives everything away.  ugh. 

last 5 weeks of grad school. lazzyyyy. which makes it painful. i dont want to put the effort in. i'm sooo close.
my classes are so easy but its soooo hard to get motivated.
i would rather clean my apt, work, anything than do schoolwork.

i stay up too late. 

kendra

video quality isn't good. but amazing song.
on repeat.

favorites...

manicures
red wine
my ipod
rolled sleeves
flip flops
leggings
fresh sheets
living alone
my blackberry
good photos

new motto

happy saturday

i make decisions quickly, but whole-heartedly

goals

learn to love to run.  half marathon in 2011.
more tea, less wine.
yoga.
read books. (i love books. but who has time to read?)
10 more pounds.

truth

todays truths.

my job stresses me out.
i swear too much.
i used to be a much happier person. and secretly wish i still was
cleaning makes me feel like there is order in the world
i dont believe in life without nail polish  (courtesy of j. britz)
i looooved the north end yesterday.
thunder still seems romantic.
and at 27, i still have crushes.

:)

moving forward

Never mind searching for who you are. Search for the person you aspire to be. ~Robert Brault

i love this.  i'm on my way.  my life is fantastic and great for who i am now, but its not the life i want. i spent friday in the boston office and had a ball. if only there was a need for me to be there all the time.  amazing that a rainy, hectic day that began on a 6:55am train has me so looking forward to living there.   made me even more confident that boston is right next step for me. 

LOVE FALL

there are so many things i love about fall. FOOTBALL. the fact that we have a fantasy league. red wine. sweaters. leggings. boots. cider...    YAY! 

inspiration

moods sneak up on me. tonight i feel phenomenal.  so many things inspire me:

amanda.
my sister.
good music. - basia, john mayer, marina.
new york.
idea of boston.
travel.

makes me want to find the balance in eating pizza, meditation, and fall in love.      in love with this book.

exactly.

where to begin.

i get caught up in the day-to-day, in work, in school, in all the annoyingness.  so i'm remembering to focus on my favorite things and the beauty in it all.

about alli

Added 6/2/2011


Not so long ago, I was a normal twentysomething living in New York City.  I was getting my MBA at night on top of working too much and complained about it a LOT. I worked out on occasion and existed almost entirely off of Lean Cuisine's and take out.   Sounds great right?
 

Actually it kind of was.  I loved my friends, my apartment, the city. I liked what I did for work and most of the people I worked with.  I didn't worry about what my weekend plans were, because there were always a handful, or two, of my favorite people around & plenty of good food and wine to be had.  

Every way I envision my future though, I lived in the suburbs where my fictional future children could be bff's with their fictional future cousins and my extraordinary parents were always close by.  Unfortunately for me, NY didn't have that to offer. I always knew it wasn't long-term. So while finishing up grad school, I decided that if I was going to make the move, now was the time.  I loved the life I had, but it wasn't the life I wanted.

So in January, I got a job, packed up my life and moved to Boston.

One giant leap toward the life I want.
Except now:

I live in a new city, where most of my friends don't live & aren't always readily available 

the concept of good take-out doesn't exist

the closest grocery store is Whole Foods, which doesn't believe in Lean Cuisine

grad school is over, work hours are reasonable & I have tons of time!

Now what?  No idea what to do with myself. Get a hobby? 

Well, I toyed with the idea of running a half marathon last year, with the hopes of tricking myself into loving running and losing a few pounds (or more than a few). but!  I ran a few times, blamed work and school for not having time, and gave up on that prettyy quickly.  

Now I have no excuses, plenty of time, and unlimited free access to treadmills and trails. So, I dusted off that goal, decided I want to be a runner, and am working towards a half marathon this summer.  While following the half-marathon training of a blogger I went to college with, I managed to stumble onto a few healthy living blogs and got completely hooked.   They've inspired to me to dig deeper. 

So here I am, I'm taking a harder look at the "life I want" and all that entails.

family.friends.health.food.running.boston   you name it..